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Diary of teenage angst (wt) pt 3

My addictive habits. Be it walking, diet coke (now coke zero), Tony’s chocolonely, pink wafers - I could go on. Other highlights include skinny bars, carrots, diet hot chocolate, protein bars, cheap chocolate, rice cakes in any form, popcorn, dairy lea. Yes I would eat these in bulk. Yes I do feel shit if I eat any of these now. And no I don’t know why it’s such a boring selection. We’ll come to more ‘fun’ food habits later on. Never fear you are normal. Maybe I don’t need the alcohol to have fun.

I am impulsive. Sometimes I am incredibly happy. I’m obsessive. I get tired easily. I am quite ambitious. I have a wide range of interests. I’m game for most things. I get frustrated when I can’t work. Without admitting it I have a lot of fear foods. I have high standards. I am quite judgemental of people. I am emotional. I’m better under deadlines. I say things without thinking. I lack common and practical sense. I’m a push over. I’m fiercely independant. I geek out over calories and without admitting it I still count them. I over think and talk a lot in my head. I’m content in my own company. I like to plan. Basically I’m not a saint. I’m not a saint to others and not more importantly to myself. Which is something that needs to change.

I worry; am I enough, working hard, unfit, lazy, exercising enough, applying myself to my degree, eating too much, having too much sugar. Am I having fun.

In answer yes I am but I worry what other people think and what I think.

What I’m trying to say is. You’re normal and I am too. Here’s the story, the good the bad and the plain ugly…